"gladly i break that thread"

I bought (almost) all the Nabari no Ou volumes I was missing and am plowing through a reread, please send help because I am back in RaiGau hell after Eleven Fucking Years. I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM AND HOW MARRIED THEY ARE!!! raikou silently begging gau to leave him, please help me. I want to write fic but specifically the fic I tried to write in ~2010 and never did finish about them rebuilding the Shimizu clan with Raimei. But because I have to revisit canon it's taking forEVER and I admit I'm just jumping to the parts that involve them in the manga. Also the fandom was Not A Great Place and that's bringing up a lot of negative feelings when I try to write.

in conclusion i swooned when in volume 12 raikou said "i won't let you touch him" to kouichi after he attacked gau.