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I'M ENGAGED! After a year of wearing matching 'promise' rings (with me considering myself engaged from that second tbh), Bre and I finally decided to be honest with ourselves about what we wanted, and I proposed to her properly on Tuesday. Obviously, she said yes. She started to cry; it really didn't hit me until hours later and then I wanted to scream. We've been together for four years and friends for seven.

Now I get to plan a wedding! I am so excited to marry her!!! I can't wait to go dress shopping aahhhhh. We've tentatively picked colors, possible dates (2022), location (just not venue), important songs, flowers, wedding parties (we agreed to have them, anyway, originally we were against it but I couldn't see myself without my Best Man), and size of the ceremony (under 30 people). We're aiming for something like what my college friends did by doing a small elopement-style ceremony with a brunch or dinner to follow instead of a reception. We're talking honeymoon but our dream is saving up and going to Japan.

We've told our friends but not our families yet because tbh our families are not terribly supportive, to be a downer for a second, so we're waiting to tell them.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.