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Update: The Girl and I are now girlfriends!!! We agreed to be so on Saturday, September 23rd, 2023 while waiting for a table at Noodlehead in East Liberty. Our dates last hours. We talk every day, all day. Our upcoming plans include vegetarian brunch and the Moulin Rouge musical, and in February we're going to Punxsutawney for the Groundhog Day celebration.

I'm ecstatic, I like her so much. I feel I can tell her anything about myself and she makes me feel appreciated and safe and like she's excited about me and us! I am so, so excited to see what happens next.

In other news, I started a very good "My career has Arrived" type of job in July. It is awesome, if a bit nerve-wracking.

Life is just going Well.

I'm age 30, sober, writing, and renting a house. Still single and not Crazy about my health right now but things could be worse! I love my boss and work is going okay. The cats are of course great and I own four pet mice now too!

Overall I'm just sorta trying to Do Life now, sober and all that. I'm reading a lot and attend a gay book club, on dating apps, trying to fill my time. I am content enough, someday I hope I'll be happy.

I'm alive, I'm okay. The shortlist of stuff going on:

-- Okay yes I may have adopted two, count 'em two, cats since I moved here. Harley, a tortoiseshell who's shy with everyone except me and the most loving girl in her own way (she lovebites constantly sob), and Sigma, a black-and-white chubby boy who is a dog in a cat's body (ADORES humans, hates to be away from them, loves food, loves climbing on my fucking stove and cries when I shower????). If you count 'Harley' as a reference to Tenmyouji's biker speech from VLR, both of them are Zero Escape kitties. Harley is still trying to figure out if she likes Sigma and this consists mostly of trying to play with him only to hiss and swat if he dares play back with her.

-- I started dating already and that is going well? I'm having fun and meeting nice girls. Nothing serious yet. In hindsight my last relationship should've ended two years ago so I'm not broken up about it ending at all. My ex wasn't a bad person, just wrong for me and I think I for her. We are no longer in contact.

-- I got dumped by a close friend and for a long time it really fucked me up. It does still hurt but it hurts less every day. I cherish the memories, good and bad.

-- I've reconciled with my younger brother and we're talking again. Love is had. Don't give up on people you care about.

-- Work is a shitshow where I'm well-liked so there's that. I appreciate the huge opportunity I've been given to be an official property manager and handle a full lease-up but, like, goddamn this is stressful.

-- I'm an aunt for the fourth time! My older brother had his first kid and he is adorable.

-- Got back on all my meds and am doing much better mentally, I think.

-- I am not writing much, just too busy with work and trying to get a social life here off the ground. I've been picked on and off at my Fandom 5k fic and an NG fic where Amanome/Hazuki have a lavender marriage and both bang Akira on the regular. Mostly it's an excuse for yakuza power trio and sickass tats and porn.

-- Overall, I would say I am doing better than I have been in years.

I'm single now. I broke up with Bre after several non-scandalous personal realizations. It was for the best. Just wanted to update on that part of my life.

We've been under a winter storm warning for 39430 days now and now we have icy roads!!! Don't mind me if I start crying!!!! Why did I move to Pittsburgh!!!

I need a new car too and I want to cry because Jumpy, my car, is my baby.

Sadly we can't work from home today so here I go I guess!! Digging out my car for the umpteenth time!!!

Here's a fic I posted recently, WIP:

Marvel of Mankind (4047 words) by morphogenesis
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: Nabari no Ou
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Meguro Gau/Shimizu Raikou, Shimizu Raikou & Shimizu Raimei
Characters: Meguro Gau, Shimizu Raikou, Shimizu Raimei, Yukimi Kazuhiko
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Mutual Pining, Canon - Manga, Families of Choice, Slow Burn
Summary:

The long road to rebuilding the Shimizu clan, one step at a time.

Or, "The Hanging Garden" redux.

I'M ENGAGED! After a year of wearing matching 'promise' rings (with me considering myself engaged from that second tbh), Bre and I finally decided to be honest with ourselves about what we wanted, and I proposed to her properly on Tuesday. Obviously, she said yes. She started to cry; it really didn't hit me until hours later and then I wanted to scream. We've been together for four years and friends for seven.

Now I get to plan a wedding! I am so excited to marry her!!! I can't wait to go dress shopping aahhhhh. We've tentatively picked colors, possible dates (2022), location (just not venue), important songs, flowers, wedding parties (we agreed to have them, anyway, originally we were against it but I couldn't see myself without my Best Man), and size of the ceremony (under 30 people). We're aiming for something like what my college friends did by doing a small elopement-style ceremony with a brunch or dinner to follow instead of a reception. We're talking honeymoon but our dream is saving up and going to Japan.

We've told our friends but not our families yet because tbh our families are not terribly supportive, to be a downer for a second, so we're waiting to tell them.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I have an impacted wisdom tooth ow ow ow. I think my HSA will cover the extraction but what a nice way to start my time here in Pitt. Can't really focus right now but more info on that soon.

I GOT THE JOB I'M MOVING TO PITTSBURGH!!!

So I've been on this self-improvement-ish journey this year. I started by cutting out most social media (feel much better); committed to reading at least one book a month; I'm trying to quit drinking (it's Hard); and I started working out! I do mostly full-body strength training with kettlebells. I also got full-time hours at my job again. I committed to finishing my WIPs and I completed "Crashing in the Name of Science" after nearly four years!

I'm still burned out AF and gearing up for my annual Seasonal Transition Episode but I do feel a little bit accomplished.

Looking back I've accomplished way more than I thought I did. That's nice.

Yeesh, it feels like so much has happened. A big burden was taken off my back because I GOT BACK TO FULL-TIME HOURS! It's the exact same job I'm doing now but split between two buildings and pushes me back up to full-time. I'm ecstatic, now I won't be (as) broke and this should help normalize my schedule.

This takes a lot off of my mind, because now I'm staying in my city and don't have to rush to move. I can save for retirement again and a house (because I'm boring these are my next Life Priorities). So I am happier than I've been in a long time. So much relief.

I hadn't been able to write but today I posted Ch 25 of "Crashing." I can eat again! I can sleep again! Hooray for full-time work!

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